a friend indeed

A man of many companions may come to ruin,

but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Prov 18:24

today i made a new friend. not that i didn't know her before, but today was different. as far as memory serves, i don't think i've ever sat down with her to talk. but when we started talking about our struggles in church, we were at once closer than sisters.

It's amazing when you think you're all alone, God just brings someone along to comfort you. yeah, church planting is definitely lonely. if you can't live without friends, you won't survive the church planting scenario. only the emotionally strong can run and not give up. what amazes me more is, when 2 persons are serving god with all their heart, if 2 persons have suffered on account of God's glory before, these 2 can just sit down to talk and encourage each other freely, both understanding fully the extend of the other's pain/joy that comes along with such suffering.

i always thought there was no one who understands me. i always thought that being lonely is my lot in life, my cross i have to carry as it were. but after today, i know there are many people out there like me. of course it's easy to say Jesus is my best friend, but god did create eve to be adam's companion. we still need encouragement from friends. oh, i'm still in awe of God's grace. i didn't have to say much, she already knew how to comfort me because she's already been through it.

His grace is and ever will be amazing. His mercies are new every morning! praise the Lord!

Discipline

A little sleep, a little slumber,a little folding of the hands to rest

and poverty will come on you like a bandit and scarcity like an armed man.

Prov 24:33-34

i watched on E! the other day and saw alicia keys on it. i asked my mom how come i'm not there. she said, besides talent, like any other thing, i must work hard. really hit home for me. i've been wasting so much time lazing around a bit here, a bit there. so i've decided i'll try to stay off tv as much as possible. oh, and the net. sigh. not as easily done than said.

decided i want to work hard to make my life mean something. i'm on this long painful journey of learning self-discipline. i think it's even harder than form 6 biology. sigh. this is me, feeling pitiful for myself.



p/s: i'm trying to practice my piano again, hopefully i'll at least play it well...