shameful thoughts

2 Corinthians 4:2 "we reject all shameful deeds and underhanded methods..." it's so easy to have thoughts that are shameful. deeds are rather detectable, but thoughts are my own and thus i can easily hide them. and so, shameful thoughts are much more dangerous. It's hardly evil thoughts, but shameful in many ways. i catch myself thinking many times "good thing he/she can't read my thoughts..."


i think the only remedy for these shameful thoughts is found in Romans 8:5 which says "those who are dominated by the sinful nature think about sinful things, but those who are controlled by the Holy Spirit think about things that please the Spirit."


I think i need the Holy Spirit to control me and to control my thoughts everyday. My life's goal is to please the Lord. When i stand before him on judgment day and my thoughts are played out like a movie, i don't want to be ashamed. i want the Holy Spirit to be pleased with my thoughts, that my whole being is pleasing and acceptable to the Lord.

Therefore i need to be constantly found in the presence of God, constantly coming to him for my mind to be renewed. This, is discipline. There will be days (there have been many)where i just want to "run away" from God, but that has to stop. i want my life to be guarded by the Lord, i want my foundation to be on His word.

So today, there's much to do, much to accomplish. By his strength and in His control, there will be discipline in my life that leads to passion for the things of God.